“When the cares of my heart are many, your consolations cheer my soul,” (Psalm 94:19, ESV).
I received some bad news yesterday. I lost my biggest client, a client I have worked with for almost ten years, due to the financial impact of COVID-19; in fact, they were, at that moment, my only client. It’s not the business model one strives for, and it certainly was not ideal. My business has ebbed and flowed with clients coming and going, and, unfortunately, the tide has been out to sea for quite some time. Now it seems like it may never return.
I have been here before. Almost eight years ago, while my son was battling cancer, I lost my job with the organization I served for ten years due to financial difficulty. (Ten years seems to be my shelf life in a particular role.) At the time, I worked with the client I just lost in a limited capacity as a side job. I had spent almost 20 years in youth ministry in a professional or volunteer role since college. That chapter of my life closed, it was time for a change, and I built a new social media and communications business with this particular client at the foundation.
The foundation cracked and, today, the cares of my heart are many. I am reminded now as I was reminded then that the consolations of God would cheer my soul.
I don’t know what is next, but what I do know is that God is my provider. He is my bountiful supplier. This change could open up a wonderful opportunity. I have hope.
I’m also thankful that my family is in relatively good health. Morgan is still cancer-free. My wife has a great full-time job. Most of all, I’m grateful for a wonderful Savior who saved a wretch like me so that I could have a relationship with Him. Jesus is my strength and my shield. He is my everything, and at a time of loss, I cling to that.
I would also like to appeal to my brothers and sisters in Christ. I covet your prayer. I also appreciate job and client leads, but mostly your prayers.
Also, Caffeinated Thoughts is literally the only income I have coming in starting next month, and it barely pays for itself (also, the client was one of my sponsors). So if you are a reader, please consider becoming a patron. That would be much appreciated.
Also, I have not given up on the idea I shared almost one-year ago. Perhaps this change will provide the push needed to pursue this opportunity, I don’t know. I covet your prayer about that as well.